Wednesday, April 23, 2014

LymeZombie, My Broken World - 6 "Along Comes Samento"

Monday, 4/21/14 I added “1” drop of Samento to my Protocol.
Tuesday about an hour after I took the Samento, I couldn’t keep my eyes open. I had to sleep.

I have, nausea [lated all morning], stomach cramps, pains in my feet, legs, arms, hands, neck, head, chest. I also had a little Vertigo, ALL short lived, some are old pains returning, some are new. I also have what I call a "flash fever", it lasts a little longer now. [Even my Hot Flashes from Menopause happened in the Spring & Summer, in Winter when I really wanted the Heat, they were no where to be found]  lol

Today, about 1 hr after taking it I became Excessively Tired, I HAD to lay down, when I had to get up to “pee”, and old familiar feeling returned, my body felt SO Heavy. It was as if gravity was pulling my Heavy Rock filled body to the ground. My neck has that feeling of being unable to support my head, this is another feeling I used to get quite often. I have a new Headache also, unlike my usual. My dreams are also quite funky, they have always been a bit strange, but they are a weird strange now. HeartBurn, I have been getting this on and off, so I’m not sure if it is because of the Samento or just a coincidence. I got it yesterday and today about 1/2 hr after taking it. Stomach Cramps I haven’t had in years, they are back, the ones I have always described as “Alien’s with very Long, Sharp claws, that are trying to Scratch their way out through my Stomach”. Luckily, they only last a few minutes.

I am really hoping this does something for the residual effects of bell's palsy [synkinesis], I have started Massaging the tension, I can feel the area all balled up “Again”. I would feel SO Great if my face came back. I read a few articles this morning where women had B.P. and after 3-5 years their face bounced right back. Id feel SO HAPPY. I’d like that more than anything.
I have decided against taking a 2nd drop tonight, I’m just going to do the one for a few days, then add the 2nd drop so I am not confined to bed ALL day and night.

Its now Wednesday, the good thing is I woke up feeling good, I got up 5:30am, went out with Zeus a few times, took a few pictures. I have done the dishes and cooked 2 meals. I also washed the floor and straightened the kitchen.

It’s 2:45, I'm now taking my one drop of Samento now. I figured I could at least have half a great day [in case to makes me wicked fatigued again.
I was a bit scared of what was going to happen, I was prepared to deal with it, but non the less, scared. I’m very happy to say, SO far I feel Samento is going to make a big difference. I’m going to take it slow, just as my LLMD told me to do, get my body and brain used to it then increase it.

Friday, April 11, 2014

LymeZombie, My Broken World - 5

I felt I needed to write this because I have not heard anyone say they have experience the "feelings" I get.
Yes, I have an assortment of intense pains throughout my body. My neck gets a pain that feels as if can no longer support my head, my head is going to just fall down, or off my shoulders. I get the pains in my legs, knees, arms, head, feet pains. Then there are the BaZillion Neurological Symptoms, I have so many, I feel as if I am watching me, in a Horror Movie or a living Nightmare,  The Anxiety is Terrible, I have described it in detail in my other posts. There are many people that have these same symptoms.

Here are my unusual experiences. I have a lot of weird "feelings", for instance, vibrations that occur in my feet and go through my body. Waves of Intense Heat that start in the Solar Plexus Chakra, sometimes the Sexual Chakra, they feel like someone put a high powered light on in that area, and it spreads out, washing over my entire body [inside]. Then I have a feeling of heaviness or like a constricting feeling under my breast, exactly where my bra rests, it is still there If I go braless. Then there is a feeling I have always gotten if I thought something was wrong, or something was going to happen. I guess I can explain it as a feeling of maybe an Adrenaline rush. It's in the very center of my chest, also its a flash feeling, it lasts a second, but if I get it, it has lasted on and off throughout the day. Then there are other feelings, also in my chest area, I'll describe them as quick jolts, they move from the left side to the right side, then center, very fast electrical jolts. I sometimes honestly feel as if I am short circuiting. This one is the strange one. I "feel" as if a certain area hurts. There is no pain, but I "feel" there is. I actually have to lay down when I get these "feelings". These "feelings" actually sometimes make me feel weak, sometimes dizzy.
When I first starting experiencing these things, it really frightened me big time. It actually caused me to have full blown panic attacks. Yes, I still get a bit nervous when I get them, just not as bad.
I only told one person, the nurse I used to have, she asked me to rate it on a 1 to 10 scale. How the Hell do you rate "Feelings".
Anyone else out there have anything like I have described?

LymeZombie, My Broken World - 4

I'm tying this very slowly, having to correct many mistakes. See, I'm typing while Crying and Sobbing Uncontrollably, the tears are like water works falling from my eyes. [Detoxing]

I woke at 4;55 feeling really good. I took my aspirin and 1/2 atenolol, then, it felt exactly like a wave of gloom washed over me around 7:30 I felt a warm surge start in my chest, then move all through my body, leaving me feeling weak, strange. Here I fucking go Again. I’m filled with anxiety, fear, feeling of impending death, alone, sadness, uncontrollable crying.  I feel like screaming “PLEASE, someone come and just Hold me till it all goes away”.
I noticed this morning, I seem to hold my breath [a subconscious thing]? I notice it all of a sudden, I then breath again.

I had 2 weeks of feeling a little better, is that that ALL I can fucking have? Why did I crash so soon?
Usually I make it at least to the full moon, then, next day I crash. The full moon is 4 days away.  Maybe the Lunar Eclipse is effecting me?
Nothing in the nightmare makes ANY sense or follows ANY rules. Always Expect the unexpected, you can feel like a million, then at the blink of an eye you will feel like total shit . Unable to function.

The entire month of March was Horrific for me, Every fucking Day I was filled with Anxiety, intense fear, sadness, uncontrollable tears and constant thoughts of Dying.
When I woke one morning [2 weeks ago] actually feeling good,  I was a bit suspisious it took a couple days, then I actually had a day when I had no pains for the entire morning, when they returned, they were minor. I throughly enjoyed Every One of those days, so did Zeus. The Good Days are so short lived aren't they.