tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-79451772552014989372024-03-04T21:45:00.138-08:00My ReBirth and Self InitiationAnonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02754625968959591699noreply@blogger.comBlogger28125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7945177255201498937.post-3109108728974049892015-06-02T06:46:00.001-07:002015-06-02T06:46:43.020-07:00Same Dream<div style="color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0.701961); font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0980392); text-decoration: -webkit-letterpress;"><span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><br></span></div><div style="color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0.701961); font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0980392); text-decoration: -webkit-letterpress;"><span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhHJGKtX1OMgca48PBXkiRIPuYicSReVs2T67_Yyth7boK3rZ6e6dHVrVZMgfS2RWHinR_A-Mt_BSdyHGeGLBPWXgmk0_GXNOV3qTyQCDzCeJgEawStaIQt2bYtbkpTozAFyQnV1JGaAyk/s640/blogger-image-201019700.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhHJGKtX1OMgca48PBXkiRIPuYicSReVs2T67_Yyth7boK3rZ6e6dHVrVZMgfS2RWHinR_A-Mt_BSdyHGeGLBPWXgmk0_GXNOV3qTyQCDzCeJgEawStaIQt2bYtbkpTozAFyQnV1JGaAyk/s640/blogger-image-201019700.jpg"></a></div></span></div><div style="color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0.701961); font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0980392); text-decoration: -webkit-letterpress;">Photo by; Lady Selene</div><div style="color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0.701961); font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0980392); text-decoration: -webkit-letterpress;"><span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><br></span></div><div style="color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0.701961); font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0980392); text-decoration: -webkit-letterpress;"><br></div><div style="color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0.701961); font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0980392); text-decoration: -webkit-letterpress;"><span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><br></span></div><div style="color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0.701961); font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0980392); text-decoration: -webkit-letterpress;"><span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">I see, hear something<br>amazing</span></div><div style="color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0.701961); font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0980392); text-decoration: -webkit-letterpress;"><span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">funny</span></div><div style="color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0.701961); font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0980392); text-decoration: -webkit-letterpress;"><span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">cute </span></div><div style="color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0.701961); font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0980392); text-decoration: -webkit-letterpress;"><span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">I rush home<br>Needing to Share with Someone</span></div><div style="color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0.701961); font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0980392); text-decoration: -webkit-letterpress;"><span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Reality slaps my Fave</span></div><div style="color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0.701961); font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0980392); text-decoration: -webkit-letterpress;"><span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Wake up<br>There is no one <br>you are<br>Alone</span></div>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02754625968959591699noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7945177255201498937.post-81156008596829609792014-09-12T09:06:00.000-07:002014-09-12T09:07:06.581-07:00<div style="text-align: center;">
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Never There</div>
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In my Dreams you are always there</div>
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Always by my side</div>
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I wake to Reality, intense loneliness</div>
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a sadness to Intense to hide</div>
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I sit and cry for You</div>
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sit and cry</div>
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For her</div>
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The Lymenoid Zombie</div>
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So, </div>
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I wonder if anyone else “Feels” like they are in </div>
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someones Video Game.</div>
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Title: Chronic Neurological Lyme Disease</div>
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Story Line; Lymenoid Zombie Battling Spirochetes & ABX</div>
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We have been infected with Spirochetes</div>
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They are Nano Bug Machines; </div>
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they are Evil, Slick, Stealth [Bio WarFare-Chemicles]</div>
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Tainted Sprays omitted Via Man Made Birds </div>
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We have to constantly be in Combat, </div>
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Physically, Mentally</div>
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as they swim through our bodies</div>
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Spiraling into our Very Soul</div>
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The Great Sun Disk Vanishes</div>
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Total Darkness has been Cast.</div>
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It’s us against the Nano Killer Bugs [Spirochetes]</div>
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Us against the Bug Killers [ABX]</div>
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Some of us change colour</div>
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some inherit New</div>
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Different </div>
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[Additional] Personalities</div>
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Our Flesh burns, itches, flares up</div>
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Our Brains Hurt</div>
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Forget </div>
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Fill with the Rush of Bug Killer </div>
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Nano Killer Bugs</div>
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TOXIN OVERLOAD</div>
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Now our Heads fill with Noise</div>
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Confusion</div>
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Anger</div>
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Extreme Fear</div>
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Loneliness </div>
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Bodies fill with Intense Crippling Pain </div>
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Burning</div>
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Itching </div>
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It Even Changes our Physic </div>
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We have to Do ALL we can to Reach our </div>
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“Next Level”.</div>
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Tolerate walking through FUCKING HELL </div>
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[no othere way to Describe it]</div>
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Living a CONSTANT HORRIFIC NIGHTMARE </div>
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Not all of us Will Succeed</div>
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Not all of us Will Want to </div>
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No Next Level </div>
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Onto the Next Realm</div>
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An Entirely New Game</div>
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The Games do not have Multiple Lives</div>
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We, the Lymeanoid Mutants have only “One”</div>
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We are each given X amount of Energy Straws </div>
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Some of us have no Energy Straws </div>
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left after the Combat </div>
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Lost Sight, Hearing</div>
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Loose Self respect</div>
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Love's Destroyed</div>
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Onto the Next Realm </div>
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Some of us Rejuvenate Ourselves </div>
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So we are Able to go into Fight once again </div>
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The Nano Killer Bugs</div>
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Bug Killer</div>
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All Day, All Night</div>
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THEN; </div>
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One Day</div>
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The Great Sun Disk Returns.</div>
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It Bestows to you, Powers - Happiness - LIFE</div>
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You see the World in very Unique, Uplifting way</div>
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Everything and Everyone makes you happy</div>
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You SHED all Negative Thoughts</div>
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You Shake Off all Feelings of Resentment [Hate]</div>
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You have moved<br />
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No, it was NOT at all easy</div>
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how long the Great Sun Disk will remain</div>
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You Might once again be Brought into the Darkened World</div>
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Where you will have to once again FIGHT</div>
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all Day, all Night</div>
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Be sent to the Next Realm</div>
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<span style="background-color: black; color: #cccccc; letter-spacing: 0px;">I understand Suicide</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; color: #cccccc; letter-spacing: 0px;">I contemplated </span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; color: #cccccc; letter-spacing: 0px;">Embraced it</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; color: #cccccc; letter-spacing: 0px;">Lived with it </span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; color: #cccccc; letter-spacing: 0px;">Echoing in my Brain</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; color: #cccccc; letter-spacing: 0px;">for months</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; color: #cccccc; letter-spacing: 0px;">Silence The Thoughts </span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; color: #cccccc; letter-spacing: 0px;">that constantly RACE</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; color: #cccccc; letter-spacing: 0px;">At my Brain</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; color: #cccccc; letter-spacing: 0px;">Almost there</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; color: #cccccc; letter-spacing: 0px;">I turned around for a minute</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; color: #cccccc; letter-spacing: 0px;">Is that a DragonFairy </span></div>
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #37404e; font-family: Helvetica, Arial, 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 20px;">I Hear the Sound of the Rain on my Window</span></div>
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<br />Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02754625968959591699noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7945177255201498937.post-43726075077290433112014-07-25T05:43:00.000-07:002014-07-25T05:43:05.141-07:00Lyme Zombie - Shattered By Lyme <div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Injecting thoughts of Suicide. </div>
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Unable to move</div>
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02754625968959591699noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7945177255201498937.post-1499776265701749792014-05-31T06:20:00.000-07:002014-05-31T06:21:57.944-07:00Face in the Mirror<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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I look in the Mirror, A Face is looking back at me<br />
Who is She<br />
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She slightly resembles me<br />
is she a Relative from my Past.<br />
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Her eyes, are Tear Stained, her lips barely smile.<br />
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I can hear her Cold Lonely Heart as it faintly beats.<br />
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I can “Feel” the Empty Sadness that fills her.<br />
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Always Alone, real Laughter, a genuine Smile<br />
Where did it go.<br />
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When I Silently disappear in the Night<br />
Who will know.Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02754625968959591699noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7945177255201498937.post-39394654688146730862014-05-01T06:08:00.000-07:002014-05-01T06:08:55.677-07:00LymeZombie, My Broken World - 7 "Beltane; a Day of Awakening"BELTANE; I woke to the gentle sound of rain drops against my window. The day is unseasonably brisk and sullen. As I lifted myself out of bed, I mumbled “Time to take my meds”, I thought to myself, what a shitty way to live, every day wake up to a breakfast of Pills, then 2 hrs later, a medicine ball, 2 hrs later more pills, 2 hrs later supplements, 2 hrs later a Tincture. Then around 6:00 PM, I get to do the pills and medicine ball all over again. Then, I said to myself “Self, stop complaining, at least you get up every morning, you can walk to get your meds. I could be bed bound, or, I could possibly be dead.<br />
At least I am seeing what appears to be a slight improvement in my health. I am an extremely fortunate woman, even though I have many days when I feel doomed, intense pain, anxiety, defeat. I am still much better off than others with this disease Yes, I have been through a LOT in my life, however, it has all taught me Very Valuable lessons. I also learned exactly how strong a person I am, I never allowed anything to keep me down.<br />
The disease has altered my life Majorly, three times. I have always believed Everything happens for a reason, I can now see why things happened.<br />
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If [detachment] had not caused me to leave my marriage, I wouldn’t have gained the strength and knowledge I needed to survive this nasty disease. I’d never have gotten my job, which is now supporting me quite well, I Luckily also got grandfathered in for my insurance. [I would not have had medical insurance if I were still married].<br />
If I didn’t have to work through all those bouts of Bells Palsy, I would have crumbled and remained in the shelter of my home that I would have eventually lost. If I didn’t get up every morning as sick as I was during my early treatment, I’d never realize just how much strength I have, how much I can deal with, how much I can defeat. If my Dr of 12 years didn’t get nasty, spiteful, and release me, I would never have found the excellent LLMD I now have that has been treating me aggressively, causing me to see a difference. I now have an entire team of LLMD’s. <br />
If I didn’t have to leave my job, I’d never have learned so much about the importance of Remembering Others in their time of need. Truly holding out your hand to help others. Remaining positive “deep within” no matter how terrible you feel. If you have nothing nice to say “Shutty”, you never know how DEEP words can CUT a person. I have learned to forget things that have hurt me terribly, and caused me much grief, I have also learned from those experiences.<br />
I feel I “Beat” the system, I have taken all the Negatives that were lunged at me, and turned them into Positives.<br />
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There have been many times I could have just remained lying down, just given up. There is a survivor deep inside that would not allow me to. I fought very hard to keep my head above water ALL my Life, since birth. I have always been kind, a giver, was never mean, vicious, vindictive. I do not believe in gossip, it hurts people very badly which is something I have never wanted to do. If I hurt Anyone, I loose sleep an cry over it, even if I could justify it in my mind.<br />
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Still, I sit here alone every day because I could never let anyone fully in, there was always a Very High Sturdy Wall, it was built when I was very young, as I went through Life, more people hurt me, tried using and abusing me causing the wall to get Higher and Stronger. The Wall is the only thing I am still unable to move or break through. I guess this is another lesson for me to learn, “How to break my wall, or at least make a door way for someone to enter”.<br />
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<br />Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02754625968959591699noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7945177255201498937.post-85270529993832392352014-04-23T11:58:00.000-07:002014-04-23T11:58:18.298-07:00LymeZombie, My Broken World - 6 "Along Comes Samento"Monday, 4/21/14 I added “1” drop of Samento to my Protocol.<br />
Tuesday about an hour after I took the Samento, I couldn’t keep my eyes open. I had to sleep.<br />
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I have, nausea [lated all morning], stomach cramps, pains in my feet, legs, arms, hands, neck, head, chest. I also had a little Vertigo, ALL short lived, some are old pains returning, some are new. I also have what I call a "flash fever", it lasts a little longer now. [Even my Hot Flashes from Menopause happened in the Spring & Summer, in Winter when I really wanted the Heat, they were no where to be found] lol<br />
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Today, about 1 hr after taking it I became Excessively Tired, I HAD to lay down, when I had to get up to “pee”, and old familiar feeling returned, my body felt SO Heavy. It was as if gravity was pulling my Heavy Rock filled body to the ground. My neck has that feeling of being unable to support my head, this is another feeling I used to get quite often. I have a new Headache also, unlike my usual. My dreams are also quite funky, they have always been a bit strange, but they are a weird strange now. HeartBurn, I have been getting this on and off, so I’m not sure if it is because of the Samento or just a coincidence. I got it yesterday and today about 1/2 hr after taking it. Stomach Cramps I haven’t had in years, they are back, the ones I have always described as “Alien’s with very Long, Sharp claws, that are trying to Scratch their way out through my Stomach”. Luckily, they only last a few minutes.<br />
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I am really hoping this does something for the residual effects of bell's palsy [synkinesis], I have started Massaging the tension, I can feel the area all balled up “Again”. I would feel SO Great if my face came back. I read a few articles this morning where women had B.P. and after 3-5 years their face bounced right back. Id feel SO HAPPY. I’d like that more than anything.<br />
I have decided against taking a 2nd drop tonight, I’m just going to do the one for a few days, then add the 2nd drop so I am not confined to bed ALL day and night.<br />
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Its now Wednesday, the good thing is I woke up feeling good, I got up 5:30am, went out with Zeus a few times, took a few pictures. I have done the dishes and cooked 2 meals. I also washed the floor and straightened the kitchen.<br />
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It’s 2:45, I'm now taking my one drop of Samento now. I figured I could at least have half a great day [in case to makes me wicked fatigued again.<br />
I was a bit scared of what was going to happen, I was prepared to deal with it, but non the less, scared. I’m very happy to say, SO far I feel Samento is going to make a big difference. I’m going to take it slow, just as my LLMD told me to do, get my body and brain used to it then increase it.<br />
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02754625968959591699noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7945177255201498937.post-86586139988317014612014-04-11T16:32:00.002-07:002014-04-11T16:32:59.274-07:00LymeZombie, My Broken World - 5I felt I needed to write this because I have not heard anyone say they have experience the "feelings" I get.<br />
Yes, I have an assortment of intense pains throughout my body. My neck gets a pain that feels as if can no longer support my head, my head is going to just fall down, or off my shoulders. I get the pains in my legs, knees, arms, head, feet pains. Then there are the BaZillion Neurological Symptoms, I have so many, I feel as if I am watching me, in a Horror Movie or a living Nightmare, The Anxiety is Terrible, I have described it in detail in my other posts. There are many people that have these same symptoms.<br />
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Here are my unusual experiences. I have a lot of weird "feelings", for instance, vibrations that occur in my feet and go through my body. Waves of Intense Heat that start in the Solar Plexus Chakra, sometimes the Sexual Chakra, they feel like someone put a high powered light on in that area, and it spreads out, washing over my entire body [inside]. Then I have a feeling of heaviness or like a constricting feeling under my breast, exactly where my bra rests, it is still there If I go braless. Then there is a feeling I have always gotten if I thought something was wrong, or something was going to happen. I guess I can explain it as a feeling of maybe an Adrenaline rush. It's in the very center of my chest, also its a flash feeling, it lasts a second, but if I get it, it has lasted on and off throughout the day. Then there are other feelings, also in my chest area, I'll describe them as quick jolts, they move from the left side to the right side, then center, very fast electrical jolts. I sometimes honestly feel as if I am short circuiting. This one is the strange one. I "feel" as if a certain area hurts. There is no pain, but I "feel" there is. I actually have to lay down when I get these "feelings". These "feelings" actually sometimes make me feel weak, sometimes dizzy.<br />
When I first starting experiencing these things, it really frightened me big time. It actually caused me to have full blown panic attacks. Yes, I still get a bit nervous when I get them, just not as bad.<br />
I only told one person, the nurse I used to have, she asked me to rate it on a 1 to 10 scale. How the Hell do you rate "Feelings".<br />
Anyone else out there have anything like I have described?<br />
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I woke at 4;55 feeling really good. I took my aspirin and 1/2 atenolol, then, it felt exactly like a wave of gloom washed over me around 7:30 I felt a warm surge start in my chest, then move all through my body, leaving me feeling weak, strange. Here I fucking go Again. I’m filled with anxiety, fear, feeling of impending death, alone, sadness, uncontrollable crying. I feel like screaming “PLEASE, someone come and just Hold me till it all goes away”. <br />
I noticed this morning, I seem to hold my breath [a subconscious thing]? I notice it all of a sudden, I then breath again.<br />
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I had 2 weeks of feeling a little better, is that that ALL I can fucking have? Why did I crash so soon?<br />
Usually I make it at least to the full moon, then, next day I crash. The full moon is 4 days away. Maybe the Lunar Eclipse is effecting me?<br />
Nothing in the nightmare makes ANY sense or follows ANY rules. Always Expect the unexpected, you can feel like a million, then at the blink of an eye you will feel like total shit . Unable to function. <br />
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The entire month of March was Horrific for me, Every fucking Day I was filled with Anxiety, intense fear, sadness, uncontrollable tears and constant thoughts of Dying.<br />
When I woke one morning [2 weeks ago] actually feeling good, I was a bit suspisious it took a couple days, then I actually had a day when I had no pains for the entire morning, when they returned, they were minor. I throughly enjoyed Every One of those days, so did Zeus. The Good Days are so short lived aren't they.<br />
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02754625968959591699noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7945177255201498937.post-63064456144729343102014-02-22T09:42:00.001-08:002014-03-16T09:42:17.090-07:00LymeZombie, My Broken World - 3<span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">I woke feeling great, took the trash out, </span><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif; -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto;">went walking with Zeus. It's finally such a beautiful day, Sunny, warm, happy. I saw a few neighbors, we exchanged smiles & hello's. Came in, opened the windows. Thinking I can go walk a little at the Trail near the Ocean in a while. </span><div><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif; -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto;">Then, "BOOM". </span><br style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif; -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto;"><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif; -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto;">Here we go AGAIN.</span><div><span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0); font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif; -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto;">The strange sensations, weird feelings darting inside mixed with fast jolts of pains, the intense NEED to lay down, unstopable tears, fear, doom, they all returned. I had a good night last night, I thought I was finally free. </span></div><div><span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0); font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif; -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto;">It's been </span><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif; -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto;">Is this how it's going to be for me now? Is this my new Prison? I have lived in Prison (solitude) for over a year due to Bells Palsy. I need some relief, some kind life. I get to go out a few minutes in the morning and Feel "it's going to be a Great Day Today". Then someone says "not today". </span><span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0); font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif; -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto;">lI have been feeing like this since 2/16. With a few good hours between, I guess that's so I can get my hopes up AGAIN. </span></div><div><span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0); font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif; -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto;">When you feel like I do, right now, there are no positive thoughts, no fairy tale endings. It seems like I'll never feel right again. It's days like this that make you want to give up, makes me wonder if it's all worth it. </span><span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0); font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif; -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto;">The Evil Lyme king has me trapped in one big mind fuck. </span></div><div><span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0); font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif; -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto;">This is MY REALITY, the mind of "Chronic Neurological Lyme Disease". </span></div></div><div><span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0); font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif; -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto;"><br></span></div><div><br></div><br><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjHIUUyImstljC8F1vCXhWDKygWi6OTY0c9mr6ZUaViJrrBPwzFfp-s6QI-u2WdsOEwqMCgHsTeLVd7HLimylVNiHpzSkh6JEhyyikKU03QfmM3slqf5oDiK3OztQeU_W9fjB675oRnqAk/s640/blogger-image-12356956.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjHIUUyImstljC8F1vCXhWDKygWi6OTY0c9mr6ZUaViJrrBPwzFfp-s6QI-u2WdsOEwqMCgHsTeLVd7HLimylVNiHpzSkh6JEhyyikKU03QfmM3slqf5oDiK3OztQeU_W9fjB675oRnqAk/s640/blogger-image-12356956.jpg"></a></div>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02754625968959591699noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7945177255201498937.post-65712162437019509182014-02-19T19:24:00.001-08:002014-03-16T09:42:08.523-07:00LymeZombie, my Broken World - 2<div>This is my Reality, I go through these bouts at least once a month, sometimes more. I tried to explain it as vivid and detailed as I could. When you are filled with that much fear & anxiety, there is no way you can think positive. </div><div>At that moment, my only reality is; </div><div> "I'm going to Die".</div><div><br></div><div>Sunday 2/16/14</div><div>Today was one of my Terrible Days. I woke at 5am with nasty heartburn. Once again, I choked on my own saliva. (After doing much research I discovered I also have <span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0); -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;"> "Vocal Fold Paralyses")</span></div><div><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">From there, it goes to a wicked panic attack, pains in my chest, feelings of total despair, hopelessness. Gloom & doom, Feeling death breathing over my shoulder - Then - the steady flow of uncontrollable tears. </span></div><div><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">As I'm crying all sorts of thoughts RUSH at me all at the "Same Time"</span></div><div>Your alone, no one cares, no one understands, your going to die and no one will know. If the world is a hologram WHY do I feel so terrible? When I die, will my conscious really leave my body? What if I feel all they do to my body after I die? Should I go to the hospital? Am I going to have a heart attack? What if the Star Wars that's going on in my body get together with the spirochete's and all turn on me? What if the bugs are eating my brain? Do I have holes in my brain? Will the holes heal? Will the parts they are eating grow back the same as they were? Will my face ever feel normal again? Will I EVER feel like I once did? My chest hurts, my legs & feet hurt. My head is throbbing and I can't see well. I can't call anyone, I can't move, if I move it hurts so much worse. I have to sit here in total silence and cry, I'm too weak, too dizzy to move. Are the bugs eating my eyes too? Will I lay here in bed and just be eaten alive from the inside out? I feel like a living dead girl, that's it, I'm a Lyme Zombie. </div><div>I HATE days Like TODAY! They are the worst. </div><div><br></div><div><div> Monday 2/17/14</div><div>I woke this morning feeling pretty good. After my IV I took Zeus out, cleaned off my car and took it out of the yard. </div><div>Now, I'm laying down "again". I felt a weird wave in my chest, I then felt dizzy, weak, and just not right. I'm not sick or in as much pain but I'm not good. I also felt tears approaching again. Looks like it's going to be another day like yesterday. </div><div>These feelings of intense gloom & doom are so frightening. </div><div>This disease is a nightmare, one that I journey alone. No hand to hold, no soothing voice to comfort me. </div></div><div><br></div><div> Tuesday 2/18/14</div><div>I woke feeling pretty good, just very tired. After my Flagyl. I felt a bit better. As the day progressed, I felt panicked. I layed down and slept mostly all day. I still couldn't wait to get to bed. I had to pull the car in the yard, we have a lot of snow out there, a parking ban is in effect. I crude As I cleaned off the car, everything hurts. Today, nothing out here is pretty. </div><div><br></div><div> Wednesday 2/19/14</div><div>Just as yesterday, I woke feeling pretty good. I took Zeus out for a walk to the corner, came home, cleaned my car off then parked it on the street. I made soup, did laundry & dishes. I still feel strange. I could cry very easily. I have strange pains flashing here and there in my chest. The feeling I get when I'm extremely nervous, only it comes and goes in a few seconds. </div><div>At least I could function today. </div><div><br></div><div><div style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;"> "Vocal Fold Paralyses"</div><div style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">Hoarseness</div><div style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">Breathy voice</div><div style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">Inability to speak loudly</div><div style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">Limited pitch & loudness variations</div><div style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">Voicing that lasts a very short time</div><div style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">Choking or coughing while eating</div><div style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">Frequent throat clearing</div><div style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">Choking while drinking or on saliva </div><div style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">The need to take frequent breaths while talking </div><div style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">Shortness of breath </div><div style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">Swallowing problems</div></div><br><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj6EMSGnSA0IlsFvqoklPK4hePPlLbgr4KHvuiAq9tHhCx7kak-G8OtvXqRMqsD3F3GVST6ZE8k2ouG9wgbz7vG8esYuv5qm4tq08Tz9Qd0s0hBvzNjENDr-KF4N91OXf05uW6tm3fNdbY/s640/blogger-image-1936750314.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj6EMSGnSA0IlsFvqoklPK4hePPlLbgr4KHvuiAq9tHhCx7kak-G8OtvXqRMqsD3F3GVST6ZE8k2ouG9wgbz7vG8esYuv5qm4tq08Tz9Qd0s0hBvzNjENDr-KF4N91OXf05uW6tm3fNdbY/s640/blogger-image-1936750314.jpg"></a></div>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02754625968959591699noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7945177255201498937.post-14087946996939926552014-01-22T13:22:00.001-08:002014-03-16T09:32:55.066-07:00LymeZombie, my Broken World - 1<div>We all have a different way of receiving & processing data so we totally understand. There are many ways to explain things, we need to try each variation until we see/feel the light go off letting us know the data has been received, understood & is being stored. </div><div><br></div><div>A Lyme Brain is very complex. There are days when we will read something over and over, it will make no sense at all, other days, it will be understood, but not stored, as soon as it's read, it's forgotten, our memory appears to be full. Then there are the days we attempt to have a discussion, we open our mouth to speak, we get the impression our memory has been erased or deleted. We struggle to find the words to convey out thoughts. In our mind we are doing a constant "Word Search". This results on us feeling unintelligent, insignificant & insufficient. This is why I personally sometimes do my very best to avoid conversations. I have sometimes gotten into discussions, all went well, suddenly, as if someone flipped a switch, my mind went totally blank. I could no longer understand what was being said to me, all I could hear was blah, blah, blah. I could not recall anything to correspond with the conversation I was in the middle of having. I suddenly felt & sounded like a person that makes a few very solid intelligent statements, but can't back them up with valid information. </div><div>There are days when I am as cold as ice, no emotions, empathy, or reactions to anything, the shell of the person I once was, As I have always described myself a "Living Dead Girl", "Zombied out". I was like this for 5 or 6 Straight years. I still remember waking up feeling absolutely nothing but the deep desire & need to run. That was the day I packed some stuff in my car and left my husband of 25 years (a story for another time) I never shed a single tear, never felt nervous, stressed or hurt. It was the very first time in my entire life I was ever alone, yet, I had No Fear. My heart was "Stone Cold Dead". </div><div><br></div><div>Since I started Rocephin & Flagyl IV I have started days when Any & Everything make me cry uncontrollably. Making me feel afraid, alone, lonely, hurt, hopeless, helpless, sad, depressed, Very Dark (Black) I also have the intense feeling death is breathing down my shoulder. I become mentally weak & vulnerable. This goes on anywhere from 1 to 5 days, it can last for a few hours per day, or steady the entire time. Seeing as I have Chronic Neurological Lyme, this is the way I herx. </div><div><br></div><div>I also have many pains throughout my body, sharp piercing electrical long Needle type pain in the right side of my neck, so intense my shoulders shrug as I cringe in pain. In the center of my right thigh, a severe throbbing making it feel as if it's rotting from the inside out. The bottoms of my feet feel like they are walking on very sharp stones. My body feels like it weights a Ton & gravity is pulling it toward the ground. A dull throbbing nightly headache, Pain behind my ears, the feeling of Bells Palsy returning. I have had bilateral Bells Palsy since 8/22/12, I have also had 8 prior bouts of BP. At times my hands are useless, unable to type, text, open a bottle of water, they become stiff & painful. My sight fluctuates constantly. My legs get sore, making it difficult to walk or stand for too long a time. </div><div><br></div><div>The Constant noise in my ears, sometimes a high frequency buzz noise, a heart beat, or what I call pins & needles (the sound pins & needles would make if you could hear the feeling). </div><div>I gained 50 lbs. I believe it's from the meds, but I'm not positive, it could be that Lyme has thrown off my hormones. </div><div>Weakness in my arm muscles due to the inability to lift more than a pound because of the PICC line. </div><div><br></div><div>Lyme has caused me to loose control over my body, my mind, my brain. I have indeed become a completely different person. I like to believe I am in the process of a transformation, like that of the Butterfly. I will be transcended to a peaceful, perfect Warrior of Tomorrow </div><div><br></div><br><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjC2mgfVgdp5IKogSm0wPFmfSITVuHSkXq5lHVClYR5t7Ybio0mRA6uMnnUiZR58RBuo5YTiIjSKMuBuLWOpNYqXnh58xHOJH0AmFAXNl8cXJhngjjrg_cAckA2ojYVS9tmqdULPrLl15M/s640/blogger-image--1363813963.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjC2mgfVgdp5IKogSm0wPFmfSITVuHSkXq5lHVClYR5t7Ybio0mRA6uMnnUiZR58RBuo5YTiIjSKMuBuLWOpNYqXnh58xHOJH0AmFAXNl8cXJhngjjrg_cAckA2ojYVS9tmqdULPrLl15M/s640/blogger-image--1363813963.jpg"></a></div>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02754625968959591699noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7945177255201498937.post-17955576610783477642013-04-27T17:57:00.000-07:002013-04-27T17:57:32.733-07:00<br />
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We're being watched & monitored, we should All just give in</div>
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Give up your freedoms, be good little Sheeple </div>
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Let the New World Order Begin.</div>
</span></span>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02754625968959591699noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7945177255201498937.post-79307970366277800102012-10-10T18:12:00.000-07:002012-10-15T13:40:43.602-07:00Meditation<br />
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">I am beckoned down a long narrow passage </span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">Salty Ocean mist caresses my sky clad body, </span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">Slowly I glide through the midst of lightly swirling fog</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">there is a vague image forming in the near future</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">The image becomes my present, it’s a locked door</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">Only I hold the key in the palm of my hand</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">I feel the warmth beyond as my left palm radiates</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">My Senses are held captive as I drift to the other side</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; color: #999999;"><span style="letter-spacing: 0.0px;"></span><br /></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">Eyes see only black, ears can no longer hear</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">the feeling on my sky clad body is no more</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">the scent of the Salty Ocean has been removed</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">there is no need to speak, tho Im sure I have no voice</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; color: #999999;"><span style="letter-spacing: 0.0px;"></span><br /></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">I exist motionless, emotionless, comatose in a time warp</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">a hot Blue feeling begins to emerge in my toes</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">Encompassing me slowly consuming me entirely</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">my senses are released one by one</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; color: #999999; letter-spacing: 0px;">Now in the Astral world, surrounded by beauty</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; color: #999999; letter-spacing: 0px;"> I look down to see my mortality listless in a bed</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; color: #999999; letter-spacing: 0px;">My Soul soars freely with the Ravens, Fairies & Bats</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; color: #999999; letter-spacing: 0px;">Above the trees, clouds, I am now one with the Night</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">Poetry and Pic. by; LadySelene 9/2/2012</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">My Reality collapsed while I was walking the Astral Plane </span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">Now enveloped in dispassionate somber destruction </span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">Feeling completely betrayed by life, yet again</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">I Beseech the Goddess God to bestow happiness once more</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">Allow My Soul to feel the radiance of Father Sun, Mother Moon</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">My eyes to consume the penetrating beauty of the Ocean</span></span></div>
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<span style="letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="background-color: black; color: #999999;">My heart to escape the confinements of this icy black Dungeon</span> <span style="color: #333233;"> </span></span></div>
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02754625968959591699noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7945177255201498937.post-92227528032443213352012-10-08T08:09:00.000-07:002012-10-15T14:13:58.668-07:00 Society's Prison<br />
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">I feel mutated, aborted, as I waste away in my now Sullen world.</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">Filled with agonizing mutant pain, making me feel like a catalyst</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">I indulge in reminiscence, my past has been untimely devoured</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">Where once lived happiness, now a darkened necropolis</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">Disfigurement has caused me to be the forsaken one</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">In a desolate prison of Society’s Device<span style="font-size: 12px;"> </span></span></span></div>
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02754625968959591699noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7945177255201498937.post-53125672807944122282012-10-04T21:55:00.002-07:002012-10-15T14:14:24.860-07:00Binding Love<br />
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<span style="background-color: black; color: #999999;"><span style="font-size: 9px; letter-spacing: 0px;">Poetry by; LadySelene 9/4/2012</span><span style="font-size: 9px; letter-spacing: 0px;"> </span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; color: #999999;"><span style="letter-spacing: 0px;">Binding Love</span><span style="letter-spacing: 0px;"> </span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">He tried to hurt me, I looked at him & laughed.</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">He tried to use, abuse me, I showed him I was strong.</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">He tried to control me, the rebel in me returned.</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;"> He tried to own me, I then told him he had to leave.</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">Before we were done, he was begging me to stay.</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">I gave him an Evil Smile, as I turned to walked away.</span></span></div>
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02754625968959591699noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7945177255201498937.post-78492399874367903522012-10-04T21:45:00.001-07:002012-10-15T14:14:45.398-07:00Solitude<br />
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">Poetry by; LadySelene 9/4/2012 </span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">Solitude</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">I needed to live in solitude, I had to break alone</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">If I remained, I would have kept it buried deep.</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">The cold, darkness that resided in my heart, </span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">this was my Journey,I had to travel alone.</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">My heart was in prison, emotions nonexistent.</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">Allowed no one to Enter, remained sheltered, alone.</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; color: #999999;"><span style="letter-spacing: 0px;">Never laughed, could’t cry, feelings were a thing in my past</span><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; letter-spacing: 0px;">.</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; color: #999999;"><span style="font-family: AppleGothic; letter-spacing: 0px;"> I have the desire to fly away,</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;"> Fly home to Mother Moon,</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">home again,</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">where I should be.</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;"> Where she would heal my spirit,</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">take away all my scars.</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;"> Remove all my nightmares,</span></span></div>
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02754625968959591699noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7945177255201498937.post-7335730089564100522012-10-04T21:24:00.001-07:002012-10-15T14:15:43.682-07:00Destitution<br />
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">Solitary I stand in a world Filled with Destitution</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">Constantly searching for answers, to find Resolution</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">Filled with Blackness, Emptiness, Cold Sullen Gloom</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">Light tries to Mutate My Darkness, it mocks a Dead Room</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">Will I ever find Mirth in my world again</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">Perhaps the Black will Forever leave its stain</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">My heart has been Ravaged, shattered, Destroyed</span></span></div>
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02754625968959591699noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7945177255201498937.post-19424164037517093602012-10-04T21:12:00.000-07:002012-10-15T14:16:55.141-07:00Luv Massacred<br />
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">I had to leave to keep my Spirit alive.</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">It was the only way it could survive.</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;"> Hurting you. never entered my mind</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">I loved you more than you’ll ever know.</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;"> I ran that night deeply into the dark.</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">Pain, numbness, hurt, I was trying to evade.</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;"> Loneness embraced me, held me tightly.</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">I became numb, emotionless, filled only with Dark.</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;"> I died inside that night I ran from you & our Home.</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">Memory's were deleted, replaced with emptiness. </span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">One night dreams, visions, returned again.</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">I remembered you, the life we once shared. </span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">How could I go on, in this world I now face alone.</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">It’s strange, frightening, & such an empty place.</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">I’ll never love another, my heart resides in you.</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">Your love for me, I massacred, nothing I can now do.</span></span></div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02754625968959591699noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7945177255201498937.post-50932522154917301452012-10-04T20:59:00.000-07:002012-10-15T14:15:18.676-07:00The End<br />
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">My heart beats only for you </span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">of this you can be totally sure.</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">My eyes cry as I think of what we lost, </span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">that night I walked out the door.</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">I left you, not realizing you would just let me go.</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;"> my world was crashing, that night, it came to an end.</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">I hate the idea of you, now, being just a friend.</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">I cringe with Pain when I see her hands on you.</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">I go crazy not knowing where to run, what to do.</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">That smile on my face it’s only for show.</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">Deep inside is more sorrow than you'll ever know.</span></span></div>
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02754625968959591699noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7945177255201498937.post-55728630332766536232012-10-01T17:51:00.000-07:002012-10-15T14:17:35.024-07:00Faceless Voices<br />
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">Walking Solitary in the park </span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">Sitting quietly alone by the Sea.</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">My mind starts to wonder </span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">what will become of me!</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">Symbolic arms around me </span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">Sometimes hold me tight.</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">I have Horrific memories, </span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">they haunt me through the night.</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">I see faceless voices, call to me, </span></span></div>
<div style="font-family: AppleGothic; font-size: 13px; text-align: center;">
<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">I hear intense hurt, pain from past</span></span></div>
<div style="font-family: AppleGothic; font-size: 13px; text-align: center;">
<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">never to be free to trust again</span></span></div>
<div style="font-family: AppleGothic; font-size: 13px; text-align: center;">
<span style="background-color: black; letter-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: #999999;">Nor to feel Love I need so much.</span></span></div>
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